I went to school today to clean out drawers, cabinets, and shelves. I had to get rid of some old materials I haven't used in a few years to make room for the new books and materials. If you are a teacher, you know what I mean. Teachers generally like to keep books and materials from year to year in an as organized fashion as possible, but after a few years, we just don't have enough shelves or cabinets to store it all. Our husbands are sweet. They build us new shelves, or we go out and buy new shelves, or we make a request of our principal to provide us with new shelves, but in the end, at some critical point, we face the reality: we have too much stuff. All the games, and books, magazines, activity folders, flash cards, workbooks, and more books from home: books to read for fun, books about science concepts, and social studies books. There's science materials and math materials: rulers, calculators, protractors, solid figures, colored chips for all kinds of activities, shapes for geometric problem solving, dice for probability activities, and measuring cups. All these hands-on materials have to be kept in storage containers, and the storage containers have to sit on... well, shelves, or in cabinets or drawers. And did I say books? Text books, books of different reading levels in many areas of interest, thin books, chapter books, books of poetry, and books of history. These are the things we use from year to year, but sometimes we have a tendency to keep things that aren't used from year to year because we might need them, and, truth is, we hate to throw things away, particular when they still look useable. And we know what will happen if we give them away or discard them... that's when we'll find a need for them, and we'll be thinking, "I just gave those away last month... I wish I had kept them now!"
To keep, or not to keep, that is the question. Still, orderliness and organization usually wins out, and we try to give as much away as possible knowing that in the giving, the possibility that if we needed the missing book or game or workbook, it would only be a phone call away. Which leads me to what I did today: I cleaned and organized and moved things out that I felt... that I thought... that I pretty much knew I would not be needing this year. And if I do find out a month from now that what I got rid of today could have been used in the classroom, I'll just have to let it go. Or, as someone I know has a way of saying it, I'll have to "suck it up" and move on.
The reason I'm even mentioning all this now is because I brought the ant habitat to school today. I decided to leave them at school, in my classroom. It's a way for them to transition to the new environment. In about two weeks, the kids will arrive, and I wanted the ants to be comfortable with their surroundings before the students begin picking up the habitat to see the littlest tunnel architects. After I had reached a good stopping place (I'm not finished, but with two workshops to attend over the next two days, it means I won't be back in the classroom until Thursday), I turned off the light, took one last look at the ants, and shut the door behind me.
Several hours have passed and I'm about to go to bed. I caught myself getting up to look at the ants to see what they are doing... it's something I've been doing ever since they came to live in my home. It's not that I miss them, but that something is missing. The last time I looked in on them, they were not tunneling. This means that for three days now, the ants have not tunneled, and I am worried about them. Somewhat. I don't know if this is "normal" ant behavior, to not tunnel. I was under the impression that this particular species of ants, the Harvester Ants, have a reputation for tunneling. So I wait to see what happens next.
I may be going through Ant Withdrawal. I'm accustomed to having as many peeks a day as I want, you know, to see what they're doing so I'll have something to write about in this blog. When I first got the ants, I was peeking all the time, all day, a few times during the night, and first thing in the morning before I even brushed my teeth. I had it bad. There were times I'd have a peek, and wouldn't tell anyone. I would especially have lengthier peeks when my husband wasn't home. He thought I spent too much time with the ants. Now I see that he may have been right about that.
So, during these few days before I officially return to school, I thought I should try to reduce how many peeks I allow myself per day. Yesterday, I only had three peeks, one in the morning, one after lunch, and one after dinner. Today, I decided to give up the peeks cold turkey, and that is why I left ants at school. I haven't had a peek since I shut the door at 5:15 p.m. Now, it's about 11:15 p.m. and I'm trying to fight off a head-ache. If only I had the ants to look at, I'm sure it would go away. Fortunately, I am tired, so the desire to peek at the ants is practically non-existent. However, if they were here, I would peek. And I am not ashamed to say it, either.
It'll be two days and three nights before I can peek at them again. I don't know if that will ruin it for me, if I'll want to bring them home so I can peek on them at night, but right now, the plan is to leave them in my classroom until school starts. No more peeks for me. I can handle it. I know I can. If other ant enthusiasts can do it, so can I.
Some ant enthusiasts go to those AAA meetings. You know, Ant Analyzers Anonymous. I don't think I'll need to attend any AAA meetings, though. Someone I knew went for ten weeks, and he said it helped him to give up peeking. Although, he added, during the last two weeks, every time he gets around an ant farm, he gives in and takes a peek. When he is alone and away from ant farms, he's okay and has no desire for a peek. I remember when he went through it, and he really did have a rough time, but he's like a different person now. He can even watch another person peeking without wanting to do it himself.
It could be a disease, but I don't think it is. I think it's all in their heads. I say they can stop peeking any time they want to. All they have to do is set their mind to it, and quit. I hope I'm right about that, because right now, I sure could use a peek! Maybe I could look into those new skin patches that you can wear in an inconspicuous place. I hear they help reduce the number of peeks a person needs a day, but they're very expensive. Still, it might be worth the extra money just so I can have my ants and peek at them, too.

